02.04

there are people in this world whose pain, when I read about it, hear about it, see it, seems to truly effect me. their pain becomes mine.

I am feeling this pain for someone. I am so sorry for them.

even though my own pain is stranglingmetodeath, I wish I could take it all away from you.

i'm almost worried about having my best friend and mum visit in succession.

i'm afraid of the emptiness i'll feel when they leave.

but other than that, i can't freaking wait.

I have been working like crazy, and only have 15 hours now to clean the apartment, read 100 pages etc. before I have to be back at work.

I'll try to update soon. My creativity seems to be gone.

I can't believe it's been two months.

" i can't make you love me if you don't.
you can't make your heart feel something it won't.
i'll close my eyes. then I won't see. The love you don't feel when you're holding me. morning will come and i'll do what's right. just give me til then, to give up this fight."

Have I really been heartbroken for this long?

it feels like forever.

dear mum: proof i'm getting out of bed.

xox

k.