on & off tears.

but there is a tremendous outpouring of love here and that might be where the tears are borne.

i feel strong resentment and I don't want to.

yesterday we had a staff meeting at work - attendance was mandatory- and I looked around and realized that every single person there had just swooped in and helped me in the last week in varying degrees.

a year ago today i was in iceland, exploring a country completely foreign to me. I didn't know anything, didn't speak the language, didn't know anything about the country.

but somehow, i managed to see so much beautiful (which is not hard to do in iceland)

I guess I feel the same right now. 

I climbed onto a roof the other day and had a lovely photoshoot/hangout with two dear friends and when I was climbing down I had this sudden acute feeling of fear. Not anxiety or panic but just cold, hard fear.

I made one friend feel my heart beat. 

I couldn't remember the last time I had felt so intensely.

not intensely sad or intensely anxious.

just intense.

this makes no sense. I'm going to write an essay instead.

unwanted, unprecedented, but not entirely unnecessary

i don't want his sentiments.